Alhamdulillah

ALHAMDULILLAH..I'm still alive in a great day on Saturday, 1.1.11 with my all VVIPs and not to forget Mr.Janggut and fellow friends...

happy enjoy and stay cool and rock!!!

btw i want to thanks to Mr. Janggut for all advises.

yaa..actually we had a big fights yesterday..and I was s**** when I said I want to brake up!!

erggrrhh..mulut ny mmg xleh pakai..and it's bad to me actly..:"(

but this Mr. Janggut came to bangi and just got back all his things which are with me before...and he blah!mcm tu je!!!

aaahhhh mmg trs nanges la aku..haha engt kan die nk pujuk kan..mmg xgentleman lgsung!korg jgn cri bf mcm ny tau!!haha!!

and blahblahblah la lagy stories goes on....

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We succeed to melt our hearts!and it's great!

thanks Mr.Janggut..sorry for what I've done to you..

all the wrongs

and all the rights at me but wrongs to you

I really appreciate you

Minah tahi lalat CUBA tidak akan kata begitu lagi k Mr.Janggut :P

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

2010-2011

all saying goodbye and welcome..yeah..same goes here!

bye bye 2010-----welcome 2011

bye bye memories---welcome stories

may ALLAH bless us always...

INSYAALLAH :)

GOODBYE kina......GOOD LUCK kina..,

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

0003 am

0003 am: alhamdulillah..just finished built the key of genera which about what I was mentioned in my previous post few hours ago..

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huh!!! It's shocked me...I succeed to finish it without any 'mental disorders' haha!!

ALHAMDULILLAH...suprised me damn much you know....

moral values: don't ever give up and make people proud of you...and I wish it...

* if no one says 'I am proud of you", I can just talk to myself by saying " I am proud of you, kina' and even now I already said so... :P

THANK GOD..really2 THANK YOU

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

sorry :'(

I almost shed my tears while discussed with my thesis 's supervisor(E.daman) about the key of genera....

yaa!! to me it's very difficult to do that...I can't do it my by own..but I am supposed...

and I give a try..the best...but it wasn't so.damn!

I kept nag and complaining this and that..

( susahla..sy mane tau..sya mals la nk bace dlu..sb sy xphm...mcm2 agy..dgn bunyi ngekngek lagy)

adoohhaaii...encik daman i felt sorry to you cause I acted like a child and never want to learn!sigh! and you kept smiling even though you might upset with my attitude..!sigh!

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"oklah babai encik daman"

" ok..babai...JANGAN GIVE UP"

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"try buat..sebenarnye mudah je"

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"ok..babai.."

--encik daman you are so helpful person..I know you'r letting students to be independent and try first..then you will help them to be better..--

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

they inspire me a lot

here we goes..

people with:

1. pengetahuan agama yang agak tinggi tetapi tidak mencemuh orang-orang yang mungkin mempunyai ilmu agama namun mereka tidak praktikkannya...

2. high curiosity..from my view..mereka yg high curiosity ny besenye akan berjaya without care about others saying...they just try and do what they wanna..even they failed at first, they'r not too easy to give up..

3. perasaan rendah diri dan sentiasa mengakui kelebihan org lain..ya..mereka tahu kelebihan sendiri tetapi tidak terlalu menunjuk..mereka cuma salurkan kelebihan sendiri tudi jalan yang benar sahaja.

4. sedar diri..I mean..they know where they come from..such what living standard they were and their roots..once korang sedar dimana asal usul korg, korg akan sedar n berbangga how your parents take care off dr kecil smpai sekarang...n that's akan buat korg berniat untuk menjadi yang lebih baik.

5. mempunyai prinsip dan target hidup..not just in a way..but branches of way...bukanlah cakap org tamak yang nk segala2nya dalam kehidupan..tetapi setiap org mesti mempunyai mcm2 impian kan...so that I love people who they plan, target, do the best and achieve it!

6. Malays who can speak in English very well.... they are very gorgeous, freaking awesome and whateverlah!mmg hot la dieorg ny...ouh..admire nyeee...nk sgt2 pandai ckp english..(ok kina! try!)

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there are few more actually

and sumenye yang merangsang ke arah kejayaan dalam hiduplah...

and always enjoy their simple life..

peace out yaw!

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

yaw!

yaw!

yaw!

YES!!

last Monday was my first class of my final semester here guys...which is my third year being a student in fucking unsatisfied UKM...oh sorry man..i din mean to give a harsh word here..but i think i supposed to...

well...being a student who just survive with a PTPTN(pinjaman je) and from PAMA with about around a 1000 per month,it's not really good yeah...PTPTN tu lepas for yuran sahaja..argh!no baki!kalo ade pon berapa hinggit la sgt!!sb fees gilak mahal 15++++....ya i know for private college students this ringgit is soo cheap right?like my lil sis too..

but to me not!!!!

I just took 4 subjects for this final sem..so why it could be so mahal hah!!

shit gile lah...

bile tgk perinci fees tu..argh!sakit aty gile..ade sumbangan duit dewan lah, majalah la!ah ah...skit aty u know.. what if i say i dont assigned they use my money for a charity to nothing..i mean..for dewan?majalah?n so whateverlaaaa....because..for you to know..i never got any majalah selekeh tu ok..never!!...so what for i gave my money even untuk sumbangan pon,right?

dewan tu kan kemudahan..ungraduate punye fees sahaja pon da 600..kolej sahaja da 600..then nk tmbh yuran letrik kejadah sume tu...sakit aty wey ukm ny..

ok!ok!...tetibe aku rse cool..ok

cool kina cool...!!ergh!

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at de same times..i feel a bit happy.. i just finished my BAB 3 for thesis by last night..alhamdulillah...

but one thing left actly..i dont know how to spacing it down to 50mm from a birai on the top..mmm so sad..hope someone will help me to do that asap...

mm tapi da cyap ny pon xtentu btul lagy..satgy mula la byk gile correction kene buat kan..ok ok so okay!

yaaa...puas aty sb cyap awal..yaw!yaw!(actually it should be settled last sem lagy..ya mmg da setel tp proposal je..sume students cmtuh)hahah...

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

:"(--:)))

mm:'( la bile abah xjoined kami(mama,bila) g Genting smlm untuk tgk tiha n coincidently berholiday..sb abh pening2 muntah smlm..ok xpe..Allah aturkan yang terbaik..you so lovely when u still keep in heart with us by messaging us frequently...

and u're great could survive alone in kajang tu..men redah je eh..haha..

but..still :))..enjoy.tpikaannn if you abah with us,it's more enjoy...sb abah suke suruh amek gmbr mcm2..so feel like"yaw!it is a really true vacation which we snap2-ing everywhere,anytime without care bout people around.

:)) la sb mlm tu makan2 ng abah plak..sembang2..cokcek..pastu msuk hotel gaduh2 plak...abah cm budak kecik..eeiisshh!!patutla mama sllu pgl abah "baby besar"..how sweet ah!

but it's ok..mama made the day yesterday...she's very supporting..asked me to buy anything I wish..

and and and..I got this!(one of them)

alhamdulillah..thanks mama n abah too...

taaraaa!!!

it's not too expensive or adorable..tapi sangat smart!semaarrtt!!! i love u lah CR

thanks thanks mama..

walaupun mama pening nek cabel car tp mama still lyn adik dgn sgt bek...muaxmuax..

I got what I wish..

madly hope abah will join us for next time to Genting...

--haha..org len da bese da pon p genting..aku je gelabah!haha!aku dgr org cina yng duk blakang aku lam bas crita bersama org sebelahnye,die time cuty sekolah cmny 2mggu sekali nek genting enter casino--

gile lah..mmg ramay gile cina kat c2, i think most of them go for gambling kan..mm die cikgu kot..tu time cuty sekolah nek byk kali..die kte die nek sorg2 sb wife die xsuke g casino..pastukan die syap..n smbung"bahaya"..org sblah tnye bahaye ape...

cina ny ckp...bahaya wife masuk..n takut saya teramek duit dia nnty..(bgus gak kan..gamble2 tp pk gak bini)---

da nak blik..thanks teha..keje molek sne tu..mkn byk cket..kurus kekek dh tu..pian pon cm kurus..sebok je nk megurus..x umm lah weyh!haha...

thanks tiha...love u all..muax muax..

see!mama just put her head down all the times in skyway tu..mama..adik pon pning gk.tp xde ah smpai tnduk je...cool lah kan!chill la mama..hahaga!

ready to shopshopshop-ing babeh

yeahaa!

seronok ah tu pian ade skli (tia's fiance)

--untung ko pian p ng kami--haha!

dgn tegasnye mama bincang pasal dieorg kawen bile..bile..cne..cne...(mama..mama)

mama tgh bincang ngn die pasal kawen sempat agy posed peace!aahh!

mek ngade

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

ups and downs

huh! aarrgghh it's not good to always sigh-ing....

but to me huh!ah!cis!mm!mmhh!aarrgghhh!alaa!aaiisshhh!scep!(alaa bunyi yang buat ngn lidah tu)...ny sume2 bukan sigh kot..tp impression?sound effect?haa cmtula..

bukan nk merungut sgt pon....

--life's synonym to ups and down--

sometimes I've gold times,sometimes I've bad times..

it's just make me feel happy and sad..not over than limits...

dah eppy..control2 la..xepy sgt...

kalo sedeyh tu sedeyh je la..xde la over2 smpai nk mkan diri sendiri...

tp kalo mrh cm xleh control sgtla...setan penuh nk wat cne...

aaiissshhhh!!

till now..i just blur on me myself...since am at UKM..

I mean..studies cm ntah pape....

life pon xde la sgt2 kudambakan...

haaa tp ade stu mnde cm seronok...

blh g sne cny klo trase nk pgy dgn bntuan si janggut

ily mamat janggut

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

Destiny is always the best

ya..all people know everything happens for a reason at least!

destiny is always the best and we have to pleased with open heart...

and it is something that we usually hard to overcome..

and again..whatever happens in life..life is must go on..

destiny is a reality...

as times goes by..we as a muslim should always give a pray to GOD...

GOD always give the best..so we have to give HIM the best...

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

is it just a feeling?

people????

u know,sometimes people always like doing unfair in our daily life.

and my bad, that's unrealized action!maybe.

and that's make me feel..hate!hate!hate you!

i don't know either you just don't want to make a joke(intimacy) with me or you feel uncomfortable

aarrgghh!!!

maybe it's just a feeling!

damn fucking hate it!

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

such a happy life

heart...so long yeah u din write anything in this secreto book...

yaa..i feel like so bored in doing this..dont know why..

hhmm..and now trying to write again just to heart out since I've got a lil prob..which is the same prob as my old time ago..

sigh sigh sigh..I always think why I can't treat people to be my good good friends???why???it's all my fault in treating you ke???atau I'm just can't appreciate you even we ever had a gold time at least??

but...whatever reason is it..I still feel that people always took me for granted...fullstop!!

friends..please don't do that to me anymore..I can't stand with it..please..

simple!! when you ask me for a help, please don't give a full of hope that I can help you...because I also have capabilities and weakness...

and I'l make sure and try to give the level best for you..just don't give a full hope...

and I admit that I've more weakness indeed..

I'm very grateful with what i have...thank GOD..thanks mama abah...

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

pengakuan

byk gak pengakuan yg nk daku buat....
pertama. saya xmudah bosan...
kedua, saya suke berkawan dalam ahli kumpulan yang tidak ramai..paling ramai 4...tp sy mmg akan akrab ngn seorg je...
ketiga, saya jenis yang bukan hidup u terlalu berseronok n hidup u terlalu bersedih...saya mahu hidup dalam keadaan yang sederhana...oleh sb itu, sy kurang teman yg berkelopok..sb from my view, ramay kwn2 sy yg jenis kwn berkelompok dieorg akan terlalu berssronok ke sana n kesini..but i'm not..oleh itu, bunch of thanks to my bestfriend sb sanggup kwn ngn saya yg kurang suke berhuhahuha ke sana n kesini..(walaupun ade kete time belajar kat u ny, tp sy x manfaatkannya u jalan jauh enjoy sane cny)n i love my life...
keempat, saya ny slalu sakit...perut n kepala terutamanya..pas2 senggugut..heeee
kelima. saya suka bercerita dengan sesiapa pon...tp u meluahkan perasaan..sy lebih suka sembang ngn kawan karib je...sb sy percaya die n saya redha dengna kritikan yg membina dari die...
keenam, sy xsuke org tinggikan suara pada saya tanpe sebab..
ketujuh, saya sayang orang yang menjadi dirinya sandiri n ikhlas berkawan ngn sy..(bukan bile diperlukan je)
kelapan, sy xsuke org yg manja...paling benci org yg buat2 manje..
kesembilan, saya suke bile kawan baik saya support ape yg sy buat..n saya pon sllu cuba support ape yg kwn baik sy buat..
kesepuluh: SEKARANG SAYA SEDANG SAKIT PERUT..SENGGUGUT..JADI BABAI..

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

i don't ever know what happen to me now....

my life become as bored as unfilled tin...

cracks every sides of it...

i don't know how to say...

i wish this 'fuzzy' life will end anytime as soon as possible..

i wish..i wish...

GOD please open my eyes to what YOU have given to me...

please open my heart to see the real happiness..

and stop complained here and there....

....... am not intend to say 'but'...but the fact i do...

(see..i can't pretend)

thought thatIi'am so poor nowadays...poor with skill how to survive in..how to get fun in my daily life..

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

life never ends...

mmm..lately perasaan aku terumbang ambing...

xtau nape..rase cm sume da berubah..gara-gara aku sendiri la kan..kite xleh salahkan org...

nk tau pe cite...dulu sy seorang yang lain...

--saya mempunyai keyakinan yang tinggi--

-- saya sangat peramah--

--saya xhirau pe org buat kat saya--

-- saya rajin untuk join sume aktiviti--

--saya mempunyai skill tersendiri--

-- saya sentiasa cuba untuk tingkatkan kejayaan dalam hidup saya--

--saya sangat lain--

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; tapi....sekarang..

--saya sangat berbeza--

--saya hanya mampu melihat keyakinan orang lain--

--saya hanya mampu menelan apa yang org buat kat saya--

--saya mula kesah dengan apa yang org buat kat saya walaupun mende 2 xde pe pon sebenarnye--

--saya mule punya hati n perasaan--

-- saya mula xsuke itu n xsuke ini--

-- saya mula tidak begitu peramah--

--saya terlalu mudah percaya pada manusia--

--saya sentiasa berangan mendapat kegembiraan tanpa memikirkan kemungkinan kesusahan yang akan datang--

--saya sudah tidak ade skill yang saya ada dulu--

-- saya sedang berada di tengah2 antara langit dan bumi--

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....saya sangat buntu...saya sedang cube cube n mencube untuk mencari titik permulaan hidup saya semula.....

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

no mood in blogging anymore...

need lil bit times to release all probs..

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

akhirnye ingt pon password blog aku ny...

ngeng tol sb boleh lupe kan...

haii....welcome back!!!!!

i am very the very excited using my new reddish dell netbook now...

it's very cheap and anyone can have it!!!

smaller make me easy to bring it all the way..

haha...cm nk promote lak..oh no no no....heheeheh

thanks mama abah ....adik xsangke dpt yg baruuuu...yuuuhuuuuu..

yg lame ade gy ny...tp dia merajuk ngn aku sb tgl menganaktirikan die..

alaaaaa acer lame...jgn merajuk k....nk gune adobe photoshop nnty sy gune awk ye...

heeee for info..my new netbook xleh install photoshop disebabkan ianya hanya intel atom je which yg paling2345 slow kan..

never mind....never regret bout it

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

saya xpernah sangka hidup saya mcm ny

nk mengeluh berdosa..nk ungkit xbaik..nk menyesal pun dah berlaku...

saya memandang kehadapan namun ianya tersekat....

saya redha n terima dengan dugaan yang saya sedang alami sekarang...

saya juga bersyukur kerana saya masih ade kwn2 yg membantu...

saya juga tahu mungkin ini balasan atas segala kejahatan saya yang lepas..

saya tahu ini dugaan yg ALLAH ingin uji pada diri yg lemah ini...

saya cuba...saya mohon pada ALLAH agar beri petunjuk jalan pada saya..

sangat berat..berat sangat,,,,

tapi...yana selalu ckp...'ny bru cket msalah hang kina...ada lgy yg lebih teruk'

yeee kata-kata ini menyedarkan saya....saya tau saya perlu kuat..

tp yana masa hang ckp 2 ja aku jadi kuat.....tp masa lain aku lemah..takut...

saya mmg xpernah sangka kehidupan saya sebegini rupa...

betapa sedihnye hati ini bile kenang nasib sendiri..

betapa bersyukurnye saya kalo hidup saya mcm kawan-kawan saya...

saya tgk dieorg happy..bahagye...masalah hanya sedikit...saya nk mcm dieorg...saya nak...

saya harap saya tabah hadapi semua ini..saya harap saya tabah....

i am just 21....rasa cam xlayak lagi terima dugaan sebesar ini...

tapi..engatlah..dugaan ALLAH bagi xkira umur...xkira keadaan..

ALLAH MENGUJI HAMBANYA YANG MAMPU....

YA ALLAH AMPUNKAN DAKU....

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

setiap masa

kadang-kadang saya nk mulakan hidup baru sebagai kina...

kadang-kadang saya cube ingin menjadi seorang gadis(gadis??gelila plak..xpee..) yang kuat n kental..

kadang-kadang saya nak lupakan semua masalah besar yang dialami untuk truskan kehidupan yg bahagye...

kadang-kadang saya suka pk yang saya xmampu lagy.....

NAMUN.......segalanya gagal.....

saya tak dapat than diri saya dari sifat yg lemah...

setiap masa saya pk masalah sy ny...serious masalah ny mmg besr..besr sgt...

setiap masa saya berdoa supaya ALLAH tunjukkan jalan penyelesaian...

setiap masa mulut saya terkumat-kamit berzikir memohon ketenangan...

setiap masa saya pk bukan2 dn sgalan kemungkinan dek msalah besar ini...saya xtau nk luahkan kat sape yg betul lagy....yee thanks kwn2 yg tau n support...

setiap masa denyutan jantung saya berbeza..berdebar2 dek masalah besr ini....saya malu...namun apakan daya...

setiap masa sy berdoa ALLAH tutupkanlah pintu hatinya untuk sy dan bukakanlah seluas-luasnya pada yg berhak...

setiap masa saya berdoa supaya tiada perkara buruk berlaku..namun, ugutan demi ugutan sy terima....

setiap masa saya memohon n merayu meminta keampunan kepada ALLAH atas segala dosa-dosaku...

setiap masa saya gelisah..resah...berdebar..dan menahan air mata jauh di dalam hati...

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

the world comes to life

life's synonym with unsincerity....

we never expect what people wanna....

and we also never expect what we'll do to others....

we just follow the flow...

fake people are easy to manage...

i give u some tips:

----- u just ignoring them and act as nothing happen

----- or u just face to face to know what inside- but sometimes if u have no softskill to discuss please don't

----- u keep it in your heart

----- u ignore them but don't pretend nothing is happen

----- u clean up your mind with that messy things and just go on with your comfort life

...an important advise I would like to share based on my experience is .......

DO SINCERE WITH ALL PEOPLE ON THE EARTH BECAUSE PEOPLE HAVE HEART WHICH TO BE CARE...

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

semoga hari esok..

semoga hari esok lebih baik daripada hari ini dan semalam...

saya memohon padaMu YA ALLAH supaya tunjukkan jalan penyelesaian bagi masalah yang sedang aku alami ini..

ampunkan segala dosa-dosaku ya ALLAH...

tunjukkanlah jalan penyelesaian dengan cara baik ya ALLAH...

tolong aku hambaMu yang lemah ni ya ALLAH....

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures ::

a day with many cracks

today is monday..as usual i always skipped my class at 9 am...which soooooooo bored ok...

and today, i skipped again..but i didn't skipped with an idiot reason...i didn go coz my head was spinning and my body temp became higher...but now i am ok edy..

mm sigh sigh sigh...

i just got a lots of problems as these problems always running through my days since 3 weeks ago...

berdoa...berbincang..berdoa n terus berdoa....

berbincang xpenah mendatangkan penyelesaian...makin memburukkan lagy atau same je maslah ny....

idk what to do anymore...

YA ALLAH..AMPUNKANLAH SEGALA DOSA2KU...AMPUNKAN YA ALLAH...

YA ALLAH TUTUPKANLAH PINTU HATINYA DAN TUNJUKKANLAH KEPADANYA JALAN YANG BENAR...

YA ALLAH TOONGLA BERIKANKU KEKUATAN DAN KETABAHAN....

AKU TAKUT HADAPI SEMUA INI.

HANYA KAU YANG DAPAT MENDENGAR RINTIHAN HATI NI YA ALLAH...

;;;;;thanks to kawan2 yg byk support n dgr sume analogi masalah ni.walaupun ia xdpt diselesaikan lagy.....aku masih menagih siimpati n bantuan dari sume yg memahami..

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures::

second does not mean forever

salam..hai...heeloo....

this is my second blog which the old one da chow da..haha!!

and idk this will be forever or not..

ok..never mind....

i just created this key-kina as my diary..

so that i can write n post enything n averything i want to...

thanks to becoming followers...kalo ade la kan..kalo xde pon xpe..

ok..thank u..

enjoy your reading here..

get the key and drive!!!

:: a botanist who love & care ALLAH's creatures::